Emotional breakdown

Bye Pat..

bye freedom..

bye after school with friends..

bye bye happiness and optimism..







Hello "life sucks".



I feel so weird in school. Getting to know so many different types of sick people. Be it mentally or emotionally or even both. They are like satans in hell, vampire in forests.



You need to be mentally and physically prepared to take them down.



Adding to the list, there are also I-think-I-am-so-funny idiots. Um, seriously, you're NOT! I mean funny. Of course you're idiots.



Go and DIE ok? Just leave us a peace of mind and STOP STOP STOP irritating us. Sometimes, its not that we don't get it(your "funny"joke). Is REALLLY just that you're purely LAME. You have no brains of your own, you think of nothing more than just what to eat and sleep and shit. Sometimes, I really feel like screaming at those you annoying people in my school. But thank the lord I maintained my grace. You wouldn't be so lucky next time.

Its like all those losers and suckers are gathered around here. I feel super uncomfortable and I just feel like whining and whining about my misfortune. One more year toGO.. oh my god.



Seems like I'm going to be forever stuck here.



Before anything happens, I'm going to say, I hate my student life. I'm really this angry little girl that wants justice to my life.



And make it quick!





Gosh, if you're still reading, thank you. Notice I always complain about my school cos' it SUCKS. It really do. No joking. I just finished my two major important tests today and God knows how I've done. I must say something, I GOT STUDY ok?!!

Those stupid teachers! Always stressing that I'm a retainee. OK I KNOW THANK YOU! I will try to promote and not pull this bloody hell school down, happy?

Stop singing you lame people!

Sorry, just a bunch of idiots trying to behave like idiots.

I think this part of my life sucks to the core. I'll never remember it after I graduate, never coming back to this fucking school. I apologise for these vulgarities but I can't help myself. I wish my wishes will all come true. That I can find happiness again. That is to leave here asap. And I wish for the first time, people could NOT laugh at everything I do. Cos ITS NOT FUNNY. Dumbass.

I'm realy feeling quite stressed up in school. Not finding an angel to wound me. I feel lost and helpless for some periods of time. Oh! No to forget the superficial friendships I've found in school. They're just so fake OK? I mean those n__y___g people. Its like that time I decently just swept around the school canteen and then I see a few bad people. Looking at me like I'm an exotic looking bird. Gossiping to each other and even I know that they're snickering! Can see their ugly smiles.

Completely lame.

So what if my laughter makes you deaf or my looks makes you blind? You got a problem with it is it? You wait man! I don't deal with lame people. You're not fitted!

Go to hell to all those people who makes my life hell. Do you know there's something called Hades? Go back to where you belong!

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I'm WORKING TOWARDS IT.

Slacking in the library, again

Hey folks! Its my air time again in nyjc library, the DRUM.

As all of you know, I've been pshcyed to going to SChool every week. Its TORTURE!
I've yet to finish my Bio practical hmwk x5 (punishment for handing in late work).

Mr Goh is gonna be so pissed with me. oH nO!
Like I give a damn!

Sigh..there goes the bell.

In the LIbrary (again)

Oh wells, I'm back at my usual spot in the library which is right in front of the com. I learnt that i could type faster than all of you now. Oh and er..

I'm really confused with BGRs. It's just so weird with two opposites attracting each other without you even knowing what the heck is going on!

This unfortunate Imust say, incident happened to me.
When I just learnt that my BesT friend in Mindchamps hooked up with another friend which I supposed were friends. I thought all of us were like just FRIENDs because since we hang out during lunch break 2gether. But no! They are now an item, which is insane to me. Then what was worse is that the whole time when 3 of us are together, I'm the sore thumb. But since noone told me, so I guess I'm forgiven.

Can you believe that I'm a part-time dancer? Wellllll, I'm still a elementary learner and learning Hip-hop! Woooty! When I received my 1st mail from the dance instructor, I WAS SO Touched! He wrote "Hulloa Dancers!" OMG. Do you know how much it means to me? (between sobs) Because no one have treated me like a pro before, not even myself! And..he respected me as a dancer wannabe. It feels so good to be labelled as that rather than "people". Imagine how it sounds if he just wrote "Hulloa ppl." Big difference.

So anyway, I've also went for drama audition. I kind of regret it. Not because I did badly or anything but i just have a dead feeling that drama night is gonna s.u.ck.
Like great potential actresses are not gonna ACT on stage whilst those certified backstage rejects
are gonna be in the spotlight!!!??? WHAT THE HELL? Plus the location is just beyond pathetic. Of all places, it will be held inLT4 which is so not a stage approved place. At least hall ia a better option, but still lame. AND the script, SUCKSUCKSUCK ! All of those criteria nydc meets, got what they deserved in the end that is, a bronze for SYF2007.

I still think some of my classmate still need getting used to and warmed up because I found out that my mouth cramps whenever sitting beside this particular girl X. I always shut my bloody mouth in front of her because we're really like in 2 different worlds and she's like so annoying like her sister (in dra mah.de) I totally is NOT INTereSTED in what she's talking and she has no idea what I'm saying so, I just gave up! TOOT!

Oh and GP tutor, OH WELL<
He is such a sick loser! He talked about "gun shooting" in the classroom and made all the guys gone WILD. It felt like a zoo back then with the beasts making weird funny noises. EW. For those of you who don't know what I'm saying, you're too innocent! Some gals in our class also couldn't geddit when Mr XXY continued to say "I don't have too many kids because I cannot shoot properly." ?????!!!! Whatever ok! We're not interested! And then someone whispered "He loves to digress." Ya and so LAME! I know some teachers in ny tries to make learning more fun and interesting but sometimes no need to try TOO HARD LAH! Gosh!

And so, this is how sad NYJCians lives are. And now more freaks just barged into my territory making unneccessary noises. @!!%&^%#@#^@&$%*^*$^*%TOOTTOOTTOOOTTOOOTOOTOOTOOTOOT!!!!!!!!!

Slacker in the library. YAWNS

So, I've been a regular customer in the library and I thought to myself maybe I should just join the DRUM and be a hard core librarian.

The DRUM means the library. WHy? Because NY's library is shaped like a drum?! Circular, cylindrical...Geddit?

Nothing interesting to blog about and if you want to continue reading about the dry, unfortunate life of mine, that's really your choice.

OH! I shall be an asshole and blog about some scandolus event last year in NY. Although its like really not fresh anymore. Do YOU Know?? There's this NY student my batch who got EXPELLED>.<

He got nothing better to do than going online harrassing a stranger (girl). He really just masterbated (is it the right spelling?) in front of her through his like web-cam. Oh NO??!! He What again?? MAsterb8ed!! NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

You know, that so intelligent of him to thought of such a creative and brilliant plan to leave school. On the other hand, he ruined his future. Plus Mr Queck Is darn pissed.

Get a life!

I'm sucha LOSeR!!!
I was late for the whole week and its only the starting of the year!
!st impressions are really damn impt and I screwed it up TOTALLY!!

Oh! And I don't think the J1s despises the retainees (to those ppl out there)

Girl classmate: Heello, wanshu, eh you come to library?
ME: MmM (in boredom)
Girl classmate: You can stay here with me, go inside and study first. Later I come find you then we go class together.
ME: ...
Girl classmate: Ehh..Don't be sad lah! It's ok to retain! I know the J1s are insensitive (Since when did I say ANYTHING?) and they may look down on us but we must focus to do what we are supposed to do.

So, what was I supposed to say? I was dumbstruck, and I just wanna say CHILL MANNN!!!!
I have enough of those rubbish saying that we are being looked down! BECAUSE I DON"T WANT TO FEEL TT WAY!

Oh my God, I feel so emotionally retarded. I'm not even tt angry but I'm scream writing on my blog.

AND I miss my sec school SO much! Words could not describe how much I love being around with girls.

P.S: I'm not lesbian

And now I'm currently having a break in the library?!!! (whatever) And for the next 364 days, my ppl, I'm going to be a geek. I might even find my soulmate here who is also, a geek, I guess.
HAIYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYYA.....

The Emu Attack

Hey humansuckers! I'm back again! I hope you missed me...

Anyway, I've a very interesting story to share with you guys.

My trainer (I recently took a course), was like telling us about his past experience in the zoo.

So, there he was, in the zoo(duh) and he is of course the zookeeper (double DUH). He said

zookeepers are like constantly going around the zoo collecting SHIT. We really should respect

zookeepers cos they're really noble, providing a clean environment for those animals. And the

animals has no idea cos they would uncontrollably fart and pee in their expense.

And then there's a place where they house all the Australian animals (kangaroos, etc) and he was doing his usually stuff. Sweeping and everything and minding his own business while the animals really just ignored him. Well, at least most of them.

There was this particular birdy looking animal called the EMU (see pic above) focusing his beady eyes on him. By the way, the pic is a cuter version in case some of us couldn't take the thrill. THen, it start to wobble stupidly towards my trainer. He said he was a little nervous that it might attack him. So to protect himself, he held the broomstick in between the Emu and him and pretending to b so focused in sweeping that invisible dirt.

The Emu just continued forward to the broom and opened his legs wider and wider and....

STARTED DOING IT WITH THE POOR BROOMSTICK. Oh man! How sick is that?

To think humans are reactive and yah. Animals are equally as turned on. You could forget about gg to the zoo for a while.

2009! A New YEaR

Hey everyone! It's already 2009. 2008 just sucked big time right?
I know.
But...
its a new beginning and start afresh ok?

Well, I putting my new year resolutions down:
-Get good grades
--EXERCISE to pass NAPFA
---Don't skip class
----Start to like going to scholl
-----Try to like my new classmates
------Try harder even if they suck
-----Get into NUS
----Be more active in my life
---Be less lame
--Confidence
-Less slack

If I don't get all of this things done, Well, then,
I WONT BE BLOGGING TILL THEN!!!! Kidding! =)